Tuesday, 27 April 2010

listless... and a sneak peek

Hello all. I don't know what's been wrong with me these last few days. I am feeling listless and aimless. I know I should be pushing myself to do new work or to be creative in some way but I just can't be bothered. I think I'm feeling bored - bored of myself and my silly drawings, bored of being myself, really. Perhaps I'm finding it hard to be settled, or to focus on long-term plans when all I am thinking of is trying to move house and keeping my fingers crossed that I will sell my London flat soon. In short, I am disturbed.

I'm working on a sweet little job for Dorling Kindersley books this week involving one of my favourite subjects: mad scientists at an exposition. Here's a snippet from the rough I sent over the other day. It's obviously in its early stages...


  1. Awwww, hugs for you!!!!! Sorry I've been offline recently.

    You are not disturbed. You are actually behaving quite normally. Its really hard moving house. Its even more hard when you have stuff to move, places to sell and places to find to buy. Where you live is part of your identity. So it all sets your head spinning when going somewhere new.

    You have lots of reasons to be excited but also scared at the moment. And working from home probably enhances all of these feelings.

    If you want to chat on the phone, I'd love to listen to a good moan. I could probably moan away myself too. Not for any good reason. Thats just life. And as you get older it all gets more difficult. I have the attention span of a fly these days!

  2. Aw. Thanks, lovely. That was really sweet - it made me feel better about it all. You're right about how where you live is part of your identity - I'm really unsettled at the moment.

    And I know what you mean about the attention span thing - that's a big part of my problem!

  3. Sorry to hear you're feeling so unsettled. I can both sympathise and empathise. I don't have the stress of a place to sell, but am in a similar upheaval about where to next and when.

    I hope that you feel more peaceful soon. I love the drawing by the way! x

  4. Hi Laura - are you back from Toronto? If so, how was it? Thanks for your message - it's always nice to know that other people understand. I suppose life goes up and down in rubbishness/goodness for everyone. I'm just a bit tired, I think :-/ x glad you like the drawing!

  5. Yes, I'm back! Got back early yesterday and back to work today, ouch. I'm drinking a LOT of tea today! I had a great time and didn't want to leave. There are some pictures on my blog!

    I do understand about the rubbishness, and I always find myself that everything is worse when I'm tired.

    Hope you feel better today :) x

  6. Tea is always the thing I crave when I've been away from England for a while! I'm glad you enjoyed your break - I'll take a look at your pictures. Shame you have to be back at work already :-/

    Thanks, I'm better today. Putting my head down and getting on with work always helps!